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一直想说可以减少上网的时间，但双手却不受控制。

即使头脑很清醒地说不，身体却不由自主地往 “ON” 按。

现在，如愿以偿，白天没能上网。*开心的同时带点无奈*

开心，少上网对眼睛好。无奈，晚上回到家，可能没时间上网。

对于现在做的是有点blur，因对我来说，完全是新的体验。

Can you? Can you see that message?

Oops, am I revealing my laziness in front of you?

You know what?

I just said "NO" to people! and I said twice though she said "please" to me >.<

It's a bad feeling to reject people though. I hate it but I have to do it.

I just couldn't sacrifice myself to help others, I'm a selfish people indeed. (I did give her some other suggestions in order to make myself feel better. See, Just to make myself feel better.I told you Im SELFISH! )

The job looks simple but required a lot of efforts to put in behind the screen.

Have been asking myself, should I make this blog private?

Well, what the purpose for me to write here if it's private? E-diary that satisfy myself with daily activities recording?

I clicked on the "private" and clicked on the "open" again, and re-clicked "private" but finally last clicked on "open".

A moment ago, I asked myself, shall I stop blogging until I manage to get the whole new me? I'm longing to transmit to a better person, a totally different me but I guess I've long path to go and large space to explore.

I set my goal but sometimes I felt Im lost as if Im wandering in the middle of the large jungle and couldn't make my way out. Im keep turning and turning without notice which direction I actually in and which direction I shall go.

话说，之前有后悔在duedate之前Submit assignment。所以，这次我又来了个Last Minute才作online quiz。

谁知，当我打完username 和password 后，竟然弹出一个莫名其妙的"Error occured within this page"！还以为我用wireless所以line不好，只好改用楼下的desktop。问题同样出现。这次真得有被吓到~

问了同学，大家面临一样的问题。根本进不到study desk。我俩在那边捶心肝边后悔，为什么不早点搞定。她还比我更怕，因为连Assignment都还没submit。看来，我不用后悔太早submit了。不然，我肯定吓个半死。

差不多花了整个小时在电脑面前冒汗兼不停的重复输入密码。终于，进到了！

后来，得知因为太多人同时submit assignment 和attempt quiz，因而导致system几乎瘫痪。因为这样的原因，quiz 得以延期。其实都不管我的事了，因为我搞定了嘛！但是，Assignment的dateline并没被影响，因为，早前我们已经被advice为了避免系统瘫痪，最好是早点submit。

刚刚终于横下心，按了"Submit"。其实我是知道还有要改进的地方，但有一点无能为力的感觉，不想改了。更不屑明天才是dateline。但，现在好像有点后悔自己的鲁莽了，深怕会落得重读的命运，毕竟quote了这样多某某某的言论下去，感觉像是抄袭多于自己的作品，希望不会被列为under plagiarism list。哎，人，总是在矛盾之间徘徊。生死已定，节哀顺变吧~ *心情突然跌下了低谷*

今天终于是一个不用上课的星期天。然而，感觉并没有特别的兴奋。因为，还有一个Test还没Attempt。不知明天以前能读得完吗？连日多天的不够睡，变得有点火爆。再加上刚刚的鲁莽行事，现在有点灰。可以把自己比喻为像是即将要爆发、火山口正在冒灰烟的火山吗？脸上的痘痘就像是山口奔出来的火花。@@

不知下个月开始，会不会忙得没天没夜？24/7 无休，当然睡觉时间例外。看来，没办法一天睡10个小时了吧~好像也很久没试过了。**普通人只需要8个小时的睡眠，但我需要10个小时才叫够睡**。希望到时不要连那8个小时都没有。近来已经连8个小时都没有了。昨天的workshop，觉得自己在游魂。>.<

Ei，为什么天生乐观的我好像有点dim了？我真的是天生乐观吗？还是我自己想要乐观面对一切？无所谓，反正就是那个信念。“乐观”

记得有几个人对我说过："你是那种天塌下来当被盖的人，很羡慕你。" 现在的我难道不是了吗？那个我还在吗？一定还在的。如果真得不见了，就算是踏破鞋，我也要把她给找回来！不可以向挫折低头！我一定要用意志力战胜一切！

Met someone nice

Heard good news

Finally gained the "OK" word

鄭惠心首張音樂創作EP - 八月十九日面市 - 全馬同步發行

Ariel Chang first self-composed EP - To be released on 19th August - Nationwide Malaysia

每个熬夜的夜晚 都有它的陪伴

当无聊时，看一看它

会觉得很幸福