You know what?
I just said "NO" to people! and I said twice though she said "please" to me >.<
It's a bad feeling to reject people though. I hate it but I have to do it.
I just couldn't sacrifice myself to help others, I'm a selfish people indeed. (I did give her some other suggestions in order to make myself feel better. See, Just to make myself feel better.I told you Im SELFISH! )
The job looks simple but required a lot of efforts to put in behind the screen.
I could actually simply say "Yes" but I just can't. Once I pick the job, it'll be my accountability and it's my responsibility to do it well.
In order to do it well, I have to sacrifice my time to do my own studies and I have not much time to study start from next month onwards in fact. Im selfish,ok? I don't wish to differ my studies because of other people's things.
My schedule is so packed until I not even can squeeze an ant in. I even discussed with the society that I thinking to quit the position of secretary due to I will not able to attend most of the meetings and maybe activities.
I couldn't sleep now though tomorrow is a outgoing day with friends.
Exciting to meet friends whom never met for nearly 1 yr + Guilty feeling to reject people = Sleepless night
Perhaps, my lecturer was right.
" It's time to learn how to say "NO" for your own sake. You may dislike it and You can hate it but You still have to do it."
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I think I just couldn't stop myself from blogging. It's a place to pull away my distress.
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